HAIKUS

Czar's Casino

cu- cu- cu- cuts in my wrists that used to put me on the bloody spot

co- co- co- counting the hours before I get caught

co- co- co- considering how little time I’ve got

cau- cau- cau- cause I can’t remember the last time that I won that I fought

co- co- co- coming up it’s the bullet that will shake the plot

but I won’t start running until I hear the shionhrwef90w43u9

Odium

Two halves don’t make the man, but you still believe that you can be saved so allow me to explain.

I’m gonna get myself dead with this behavior. I’m gonna end lonely with this psyche. Did you think I’m that wholesome? unlikely. How much did you think my soul’s worth? Not pricey.

I’m too blind.

I’m too kind.

I’m too weak

To be able to seek

The true happiness for my sake that I will soon forsake.

I’m too fake.

But future’s so bleak, it be looking so grim.

I’m too green..

Just wanna foresee the sin.

Just wanna scream

And try to read the situation.

Book the expectation of my own imagination with no hesitation of what I’ve left to enquire if I’m the right man, if I’m the right mind.

That’s all the hate I brought upon myself.

And myself is not happy with myself because myself is asking himself whether agree or not with myself and that’s hell so I need help but guess from who

Myself.

OveR

Don’t you start like this.

Don’t you talk your shit.

Don’t you revive old memories and remember that ignorance is bliss.

Don’t you let him confuse you.

You’ve battling yourself enough to recognize a fool.

Don’t assume

Don’t resume

Don’t consume

Don’t trust

yourself.

Don’t help nobody if you don’t wanna to be bodied.

Don’t keep thinking about others.

 You won’t be rewarded in the same way

 you won’t receive nothing, no flowers.

Don’t you do it for prizes.

Don’t you do it for fame.

You’ll do it for your people’s sake and nothing more, no shame.

Don’t you see how they all live above you?

Don’t you notice how they pity you even if you don’t want it to?

Don’t fall for them, you’re better than that.

You know how easy is to be a happy asshole so be it and throw the rest to hell.

It’s the best place to let your demons go.

Don’t you grant him what he wants.

He’s the worst part of you, the selfish one.

Don’t  you trust the guy who claims to know the truth that he just simply haunts.

Don’t help him to cause more suffering that the one that he’s done.

Don’t listen to him, he’s just weak.

Don’t forget what I say and you’ll reach your peak.

Don’t you make enemies, you have enough with yourself.

Instead of telling your problems to anybody you should keep all to you and to nobody else.

Don’t follow his rules.

Don’t follow his moves.

Don’t be like that.

Don’t go with his path.

Don’t try to fix who’s right.

Don’t try to change who’s left.

Just live

Opening

We had our moments it's true, but maybe I saw something in our strange relation, its truth. When I think we're closer than ever you prove me wrong, when I think we're falling apart further than ever you catch me again. I don't think this will end well and I'm wrapped in fear, so I really don't know what to do. I've envisioned our future hundreds of times, I still can't get a full picture. I could force things but that is not in my nature. You know I can't lose these feelings off overnight and I tried, I really did. So, I'm wondered if I should talk to you and set my heart free.

After all of this I will come back to you, that's something we both can see.

Disorganized thoughts are floating in my head about me and you.

That's because between all your problems you decided to choose me.

Open your mind honey, this story is not for us two.

I still think you're not trying. I still think there's something. Something that makes you retreat. Something you don't wanna live, that you don't wanna keep.

Up with your emotions and down with mine. We don't wanna speak, we don't wanna reach, we don't wanna feel, we don't wanna leave.

It's fine, seriously. I'm not perfect too. I did so many things wrong I should be a lefty. Perhaps we can work this out to make it right. Find a solution for us to be able to fly.

You made me reach the most amazing feeling I've ever had.

I'm starting to get addicted to it, so I don't know if I should run,

because I've felt it in every part of my body except for my heart.

I'm waiting for something in my mind to click.

I'm waiting for someone to be me.

I'm waiting for someone.

I'm waiting to be me.

'I'm waiting to be.

40%

La sensación de calor baja por mi garganta mientras mis ojos se abren. Te veo con claridad y aun así te busco ciegamente. Otro sorbo no puede hacer mal.

Eres único, eres diferente, eres especial y eres coherente. Soy distinto a todos los que has conocido, te lo prometo. La frase se va quedando vieja con los años, ¿no lo ves? Si que eres especial, amigo, pero no de la forma que tu crees. El rey del circo ha llegado al vecindario y las mujeres no pagan entrada, ellas entrarán gratis al espectáculo. La realidad es mas cruda de lo que creías, el local está desierto, y el único polvo que verás es el del suelo.

El licor se acaba y yo aún no estoy borracho, necesito algo más fuerte. Pego un trago al vaso y te llamo, respondes. Escuchas el plan y te gusta, conduces. Abro la puerta y te abrazo, entras. Acabas mi botella y cojo una nueva, me besas.

La sonrisa hacia un lado y la polla hacia delante para que no se pierda. Eres el mejor a la hora de ligar y se nota al hablar. La confianza al mismo nivel que la arrogancia logran que todas caigan a tus pies, y una mierda. Lo único que consigues es molestar e incomodar.

Eres imbécil pensando que si sigues así lo vas a lograr. Ya que algunos no necesitan ser capullos para evolucionar.

La sensación de calor sube por mi cuerpo mientras mis ojos se cierran.

Veo borroso y aun así te siento con claridad. Otro sorbo no puede hacer mal.

Guarda esa última para otra ocasión, pues ya nos veremos para bebernos una vez más.

Acromatopsia

El guión en blanco y la película hecha.

Te despiertas cansado y sin ganas de nada, apenas has dormido y el lienzo sin empezar. La luz se filtra por la ventana del comedor mientras buscas el interruptor para apagarla. ¿Por qué no dejas que te envuelva por una vez? ¿Por qué no pruebas algo distinto por segunda vez? ¿Por que no empiezas a vivir por primera vez?

Mientes bien y estas orgulloso de ello, eres capaz de ocultarlo todo y también de abrirte del todo con alguien. Nunca estas ayudando a alguien que no seas tú. Vives por y para ti porque te da igual lo que piensen los demás. Eres seguro y decidido. Eres verdadero.

La canción sigue igual aunque cambies las notas.

El lienzo debería estar en blanco pero el azul lo inunda. Pequeñas trazas de amarillo se puede discernir en el centro. Observas tu paleta en busca del rojo pero ni siquiera hay verde, quizá nunca lo hubo. Manchado de púrpura buscas el naranja para crear algo nuevo, es imposible, solo hay azul.

Llevas muchos intentos y ya no queda rojo para hablarle.

El amarillo sobre el naranja se mezcla para dar negro.

Tu viejo lienzo no soporta más colores, deberias ir yendo,

pues tu aquí ya no pintas nada y menos sin saber de arte.

La musa cambia pero el cuadro es el mismo.